I want to... I want you.

I'm 22 now!!!  It's not 16, 18, or 21, but it's going to be a good year.  Maybe not so much of a social life, maybe not full of fun, wonderful memories, maybe not the best year.  But it is another year, and I'm going to enjoy it j/ the same.  I'll definitly remember this year as my clinical year.  My birthday celebration was quite nice.  Definitly a top 5.  Sheena & Tiffany kidnapped me after work and we had a speedy cocktail session at Chili's that was quite the entertainment!  Then Sheena and I changed and went back, haha!  A new friend, Michael, joined us.  The poor guy had to listen to us jabber away after the free presidentes from someone whom wanted to remain anonymous.  Thanks Anon!!!  Friday night I had dinner at the much missed Dawg House w/ Sarah and Jessica.  Saturday Sarah and I spent the day in S-port shopping, watching football, gambling, clubbing, and not to forget dodging psycho stalkers.  In Alec 2 hours south of Ruston I rarely see anyone I recognize, much less know.  In S-port 1 hour west of Ruston, I see quite a few people I know, and some I've missed.  Sunday my g-ma taught me how to make chicken and dumplins!!  Look out boys, now I can cook 3 different meals!! 

Someone please knock down this wall!  I've closed myself in, and can't even see who it is on the outside calling my name.  The Hulk has tried and tried, but the morter I used this time is too strong.  Only Superman can break through the brick, but he can't fly this far...

life moves on with or without you.  the only thing to do is close your eyes and hope for the best.  eyes closed, breath held, and fingers crossed.  i'm ridin this ride.  it's one of those roller coasters that start out really slow going to the top.  slow as in 17 years.  then it takes a dive into some loops, oopty oops, and tunnels.  then 4 years later is gets stuck in the mud.  can you believe that?  a roller coaster in mud.  yucky, sticky, gross, brown mud.  well it's out of the mud now, but j/ kinda slowly truckin along.

my apt.  looks better now.  mom came in for the weekend and helped me fix it up a little.

looking forward to a few fun, sociable, and busy weekends to come.

i miss cheerleading...

i miss somebody, but i don't know who. 

Good luck w/ law school, work/grad school, married life, and new jobs!!!!

Anyone is welcome for a visit anytime.  My couch isn't too uncomfortable.  

Ascaris lumbricoides

Josh Stewart, this is for you.  I thought I would be brave and observe a bone marrow biopsy Monday.  Well I'm not so brave.  I had to leave the room so I didn't pass out, but I still got sick. 

In other words....

The verb miss has 10 senses (first 9 from tagged texts)
                                         
1. (16) miss, lose -- (fail to perceive or to catch with the senses or the mind; "I missed that remark"; "She missed his point"; "We lost part of what he said")
2. (13) miss -- (feel or suffer from the lack of; "He misses his mother")
3. (10) miss -- (fail to attend an event or activity; "I missed the concert"; "He missed school for a week")
4. (6) neglect, pretermit, omit, drop, miss, leave out, overlook, overleap -- (leave undone or leave out; "How could I miss that typo?"; "The workers on the conveyor belt miss one out of ten")
5. (5) miss -- (fail to reach or get to; "She missed her train")
6. (4) miss, lack -- (be without; "This soup lacks salt"; "There is something missing in my jewellery box!")
7. (4) miss -- (fail to reach; "The arrow missed the target")
8. (4) miss -- (fail to hit the intended target)
9. (1) miss -- (be absent; "The child had been missing for a week")
10. miss, escape -- (fail to experience; "Fortunately, I missed the hurricane")

I miss(#2) my friends.  My life is missing(#6) something; a lot actually.  My mind and sanity have been missing(#9) for the past 3.5 weeks.  I want to just miss(#3) the whole next year.  I usually miss(#1) what most of my teachers are saying anyway.

In case you have missed(#10) what has been going on in my life, here is a brief update because it is past my bedtime...  I am currently in my clinical year of my curriculum for medical technology.  I have not graduated from La Tech.  I will graduate after this year (July 12, 2007).  I am attending the school of medical technology at Rapides Regional Medical Center in Alexandria, La.  I am not enjoying it at all so far.  My entertainment consists of studying sessions w/ Sheena where we laugh at the funny names of parasites.  I am at the hospital from 6am-230pm M-F.  I have been going out of town for the past 5 weekends to avoid sitting at my apt. alone.  The past weekend I went to NOLA where my backglass of my 2006 Mazda Tribute was busted out by a huge rock.  It is currently in the shop, and I am sporting a silver Ford Focus rental(atleast it's not a red dodge neon).  Oh and no job=no money.  Since I went to NOLA w/o telling my parents who supply my income, I am no longer able to travel :( 

Enough complaining.  Will something wonderful happen now?  How about an A on my parasitology test tomorrow?!

the answer is no

one more day... one more day... this week.

hematology lab, micro/parasit lecture, blood bank lecture...

i gave blood for the first and last time today

i shouldn't have jumped off that bridge...

353 days til i graduate and get out of this stupid town...

...it hurts when you hit the water.